The New Year

I want to wish You a very happy new year. I hope You're enjoying your time in New York, counting down at Times Square. I pray that this new year will be a good one for You, no matter what happens between us. I'm over here, thinking of You. Hope You will one day, realise that in this world, there's someone far away from You who is thinking of You, missing You and wishing You the best always.

A blessed Happy New Year, my dear.

I'm still trapped..

Trapped
林俊杰

I'm so trapped within the beat of the night
A little comfort from that candlelight
Your picture's on the wall, so is mine
Brushstrokes faded...

Think I said before I'll meet all your needs
All that is to be before it was gone
Think we might have been great, but I'm afraid
I think too late...

But I just can't believe whatever took me so long
I wanna set me free, never thought it's so hard
Girl won't you ever see, all I am is afraid...

It's someone else's heart beating beside you everyday
I said I'll play my part I pushed you far away instead
Can never say how much i miss you, still love you baby

Someone else is saying he loves u in everyway
What can I do my love for you is over anyway
I let you go but I'm still trapped
Deep within...

Christmas

Merry Christmas to You, no matter how far You are away from me.

I'm surprised at your idea of going to Vancouver. I'm excited about it because I can get to see You again. I hope everything will work out fine. But for now, I wish You a very blessed Merry Christmas. Take care, my love.

The First Day Apart

All I do is think of You. Nothing I do seems to be able to take my mind off You. Are you feeling the same way as I do? How are You doing over here? I keep wondering to myself. Wishing that I could be there, even just to observe You. I just want to see You again. Everything seems so new to me. Talking to You over the phone, not being able to see You, having to wait to call You. I miss You. Miss holding your hand, miss hugging You.

The Last Day

You left today. Amid all the rush of packing and getting to the airport, I'm glad You didn't miss your flight. Though in my heart, I had hoped for otherwise, in order to spend more time with You. Am I very selfish here? I really can't help it.

It's been some time since You left. I feel empty. My soul became hollow. I seek to fill the void You left behind. But I can't. That void is shaped in You. There's nothing that I can do to fill it. You are the only one who's able to do it. You complete me. Tears keep flowing. So much so that I've lost the feeling of crying. I miss You so very much.

Olive Garden

We had lunch at Olive Garden today. I hope You throughly enjoyed yourself. The place, the ambience, the food. I'm pretty sure of that, actually. You said it was the best italian food You've ever had. Please remember everything that we've done together. I know I will. You mesmerise me, like You always do. I can't believe You're leaving Winnipeg, leaving me tomorrow. I want to stop time; I don't want to wake up from this dream.

Asessippi Snowboarding Trip

It was an amazing road trip. On the first day, we went off into a ditch. And we had to get towed out of it. I'll remember that for sure, my first experience of spinning. Thank goodness nothing serious happened to us or the car. I hope You enjoyed yourself, despite the falls and bruises. I know I did; I enjoyed every moment spent with You. I can't imagine what it will be like without You.

I can't quite put into words what I am feeling right now. I'm happy while unhappy at the same time. Is that possible? I'm happy because we both had lots of fun on the trip. I'm unhappy because the trip is over and in two days, You'll leave.

一眼瞬间

一眼瞬间
张惠妹, 萧敬腾

白茫茫的星光, 洒在长长路上
想念的冰凉, 你知道吗?
你浅浅的微笑, 深似海的眼光
都能掀起我滔天的巨浪

你相信吗?
这是命吗?
这次我们放弃抵抗
哪怕拥抱, 在身上画下深深的伤

只要看你一眼一瞬间
哪怕是最后画面
我的世界, 因为爱过而完美
谁都不该离太远

只要看你一眼一瞬间
足够我熬过千年
我不后悔
爱若让末日提前
我们要一起, 好好迎接那句点

如果相爱是错
错过又算什么
这一次我们宁死不放手
往彼此的心里跳,跳过天荒地老

Our Last Shopping Spree

This was probably be our last shopping spree before You're finally going to leave me. You looked lovely in the MTS polaroids. We might not be able to freeze time, but at least we did manage to freeze the happiness and smiles in the polaroids. They will be with me whereever I go.

Today, we watched "Enchanted". Another movie with a happy ending. You're like Giselle, entering my life out of nowhere and taking me on a rollercoaster ride. I just want to say a big "Thank you" for the memories. They couldn't be more beautiful. Deep down, I wish our story will be just like theirs, "Happily ever after". Would it? I really can't tell right now. Insecurities fill me.

The Boyfriend

Would You be happier with him? This question keeps popping up in my mind when I hear You talk about him. I feel numb. I feel like I'm standing on quicksand, unsure of my importance to You.

I've thought about it several times. Who would You choose between us? My mind has been revolving around these for the last few days. No matter how I think about it, it always seems to me that He has the upper hand. He's much more successful in life than I am, probably smarter and better at most things than I am. He would be the logical choice, from a parent's standpoint.

From what I hear from You, he is very much assimilated into your life and with your family as well. It is at times like this when I truly feel like an outsider, a wrecker. Whenever I see that ring on You, my heart just sinks as it would if it was on a rollercoaster ride, spiralling down out of control.

It hurts me, so much that it leaves me gasping for air.

Dear Lord, help me please. Guide me to what I should do.

Alive!

I'm terribly sorry. I must have ruined your night just because I couldn't get into the club. I'm glad You decided to come out and spend time with me. Really touched. It was freezing cold that night. You even wanted to just walk out in the cold with just a spaghetti top on. I'm glad I was there for You. Glad to be able to hold You when You could barely walk properly. I just wanted to protect You, lend You a hand or an arm when You needed one.

I had fun that night at the lounge, eating and chatting with You. I really treasure the times spent with You. I won't exchange them for anything at all.

P.S I Love You.