Fairytales Are Lies

Even after all I've done, even after I've tried my hardest, tried my best, this is still how it ends. There are no fairytale endings in this world. I won't believe in love again, ever again.

Glad

I'm glad. For a few reasons. Glad that You thought about us. Glad that You wanted to think about us. Glad that You gave me hope, no matter how little it might be. Thank You. I really mean it.

The Forgotten One

It's been awhile since we talked. It's not really long but it does seem long to me. I've sent at least half a dozen smses to You. Haven't gotten a reply from You at all. Is it that hard to just reply once or twice? Have You forgotten about me already? Is this how important I am to You? Or have I already been replaced? I'm struggling to live life without You. There isn't a day that I don't think of You. I'm really heartbroken. I don't know what else to do, what else to say. It hurts crazily. I've realised the true meaning of heartache. My heart really does ache.

害怕你和我之间的一切，到最后都会只是回忆

害怕
林俊杰

我突然觉得有点怕
爱跟生活的一切
你以为我知道怎么拆开
我们的想法落差

我的爱 是说停不能停
已经弄的不能说是曾经
也可说出我是错的
爱未曾变成真的
也没藏到多少你需要的爱

我不再
去执拙我是谁
我是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的
为你我能做的 竟还没让你相信是爱情
左右你我

而哭泣都是因为爱
也逼自己不掉泪
让往日不只是有你
这网里我也撑着
拼了命的守着

你知道我有多么的想你吗？

孤单北半球
欧得洋

用我的晚安陪你 吃早餐
记得把想念 存进扑满
我 望着满天星 在闪
听牛郎对织女说 要勇敢

别怕我们在地球 的两端
看我的问候 骑着魔毯
飞 用光速飞到 你面前
要 你能看到十字星 有北极星作伴

少了我的手臂当枕头 你习不习惯
你的望远镜望不到我北半球的孤单
太平洋的潮水跟着地球 来回旋转
我会耐心地等 随时欢迎你靠岸

少了我的怀抱当暖炉 你习不习惯
E给你照片看不到 我北半球的孤单
世界再大两颗真心就能 互相取暖
想念不会偷懒 我的梦通通给你保管

The Wait

Looking at the time, You should be back in Singapore by now. I called You but it wasn't You who answered. It was him. I wanted to lie to myself, saying it was your dad. But deep down, I knew who it was. At that moment, it was like I was on a rollercoaster. As the rollercoaster went down, my heart plunged. And the rollercoaster never came back up. So did my heart. To be honest, it's really nothing. But I still felt this way nevertheless. I ask myself why.

I talked to You. You seemed in a hurry to put the phone down. All I got was to ask how You were doing and a "I'll call you back later". I waited for the next 2 odd hours. I checked my phone. No missed calls or smses. I realised it was not going to happen. I didn't want to wait anymore. But, I did still. From 2 odd hours, it became 7 odd hours.

The wait is slowly becoming unbearable. It eats away at my heart. Images of You and him keep flashing through my mind, slowly driving me to the brink of insanity. I can't sleep, even after drinking and popping pills. Those images keep me awake through the night. Tears flow from my eyes until I fall asleep.

Have I become insignificant to You already?

Transit @ Frankfurt

Your flight from New York to Frankfurt is 8 hours long. I've been waiting for your call. It's almost 430 am now and I'm still waiting. Questions keep flashing through my mind. "How are you?", "How was the flight?", "Is everything going well?". I can't wait enough just to hear your voice to know that You're safe and sound.

You finally called a few minutes later. It was such a relief to hear You, to know that you're safe and sound. It was worth the wait, even if I had only managed to talk to You for 8 minutes. I'm glad You still remembered me, still remembered this person halfway around the world who's missing you.

Bon voyage. You will be home soon.

Your Flight Home

You're flying back to Singapore this evening. Sincerely hope your time in North America has been fruitful for You. Soon, You'll be back in the comfort of your family and him. Be happy. There's really nothing much more I can do for you. Take good care of yourself. I wish you all the best in your future. Ouch..

Vancouver

This was the most amazing memory I've ever had. I can't describe it in words. It was just so beautiful that even the most eloquent of writers would tarnish it with his words. I enjoyed every minute, every second I spent with You. I'll carry and treasure that memory for the rest of my life. I'm glad it had You in it.

I thank God for this memory. I wish I could create more with You. Will You give me that chance? Silently praying and hoping.

Before Vancouver

I just can't believe I will see You in a short while. After You left Winnipeg, I thought I'd perhaps not see You again. I really just cannot believe it. I miss You so much. I can't wait to see You, can't wait to hug You and not let go.

Time, please fly alittle faster for me. Just this once. My love awaits.